#6

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It's unbelievable how fast time flies and we have passed half of 2021 already. & I just realized that my last post in this blog was in Nov 2020. When I started this blog in March 2020, my target was to frequently write here about anything and everything. But If I'm to be honest, it's hard to write things down now. Either you are just too tired, too lazy or just unable to word it out whatever you feels inside. I kind of missed my younger self who can actually write just about anything. 

I have actually drafted like 2 post previously when I was feeling quite down but I did not managed to complete those post and both times I just deleted it, lie down on the bed and let the feelings passed. 

Lately whenever I feel a lil off, I put that focus into doing some creative journaling / bujo in my paper journal but the topic of that journaling never really relates to what I feel. As a matter of fact, I don't write what I feel. Rather I just pick some stickers / washi tapes / papers / pictures/ google random quotes and ta--da-- it becomes something. 

This two pages were made in my random mood in June.

While this is an example where I actually plan what to journal about.

I'm not the most creative people on earth and so the outcome may not be awesome enough if to compare with other journalist / bujo enthusiast. I'm still learning to improve my creativity. But at least, lately I don't have to crack my head to start doing something. Comparing to previous years, whenever I want to create a journal, I was so focus on wanting to make things pretty as other people - so I google, scroll Instagram, Pinterest just to get ideas. I usually ended up not having any results after all those scrolling efforts because I was too afraid to failed and end up with an ugly post. I actually feel more stressed after that. 

I realized that I shouldn't limit myself or put too high expectation when the purpose of doing the journal is to release pent up emotion. I should just let it go and see where my hands and brain will lead me. & by doing so, I am able to calm myself down and actually have quite a decent journal. It's actually not that bad at all. I'm actually satisfied with what I ended up with. Perhaps, I should trust myself a bit more.

Last week, I did some minor changes and arrangement for my so called Vision Board and I really like it. I added up Hiragana & Katakana chart so that I can see it everyday and memorize it. I also finally make a space to display the sunflower embroidery that I bought early of the year and this cheer me up big time. 


It's unbelievable how simple things like this can make you happy sometimes. & I think I need to remind myself to find happiness in the little things everyday and be grateful always. There are a lot of ways for us to cope with the current difficult situation and we just need to explore the way that suits us. & do remember to seek helps when required ok.

Take care & stay safe.

Yours truly,
JM


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