#4

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Of Unwanted Assignment - Part 1

Sometimes I wish I am doing something else. Something more fulfilling to myself than the work I'm doing now. Things that I actually have interest to work on, especially to increase my knowledge, skill and experience. I'm not sure when will I get the chance to change my current scope of work to those job again. I crave for it but at the same time I am losing my confidence on my technical knowledge and I wonder if I could still do the job well. 

Two years and counting since I last did anything related to drilling.

2018 was a hard year for me work wise. When I was patiently waiting to received information on upcoming project, I was suddenly assigned to work with WM Joint Venture (WMJV) team. The news came one day after my birthday and I was truly devastated by it. Since the end of my project in 2017, I was looking forward for this upcoming project as I used to take care of the field during my internship as Production Technologist back in 2011. It feels like going back to your alma mater, hence I truly look forward to it. I also personally thought I had my 2018 all plan out only to know that the assignment change and I have absolutely no control over it.

It was hard to mask my frustration at the time but I tried very hard to convinced myself to accept it positively. Part of JV team tasks were to review our JV partners drilling plan and operation. Though I am not  able to design the well and be a part of the team that execute it, I thought to myself that at least the job was still related to drilling. It's not the same as what I wanted to do, but it will do at that point of time.

The exposure was different than being in project team. I was exposed to how the company managing our JV projects, on how to communicate and negotiating with our stakeholders and I met more people and definitely out of my comfort zone. It was both good and bad at the same time. As much as it open my eyes bigger than I used to, at the same time I feel so insecure with my limited drilling experience. I feel that I need more hands on experience before I could review and participate in giving suggestions during meeting with our counterpart. It's true that it was not my task to make decision from my company side, but I feel like I couldn't contribute much to protect the company interest. Sometimes it's just frustrating.

Despite that, being in WMJV team gave me some advantage in terms of I can easily take leaves to travel. When I was in project team, I need to plan ahead on when I can take long leaves for travel purposes. I need to ensure that my project was not in critical planning point or during operation and need to ensure other team members are able to cover my task during my leaves. But in WMJV, I just need to liaise with my manager whom actually have the same interest to travel as myself. We just need to make sure both of us were not on leave at the same time and that's it. 

Perhaps, one of the main reason that I could somehow accept the assignment was the promise that this assignment would only be for one year. I was told that this assignment is only for 1 year exposure for the executive and it should be on rotation basis among WM fraternity.

& stupidly, I keep on holding to that promise and not thinking that things could change and again, it's not within my control.

- to be continued -



Yours Truly,
JM

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